how do i say this....

sometimes i wake up in the morning feeling like its the first time i've woken up
everything feels strange and out of place (or rather i'm out of place) i then stumble out of bed and search for something familiar, as if reminding myself is going to help me feel better....blahblahblah....then at night..i feel better and i don't want to go to sleep cause i know in the morning i'll get the same dreadful feeling.

weird huh.

whatever....i'm flying off to brunei tonight. sigh. all i can do is hope for the best and try to laugh it off whenever i can. also thanks for all the well wishes.